What is this thing called cancer. No one likes it and so why don't we just get rid of it. Sometimes I wonder if it is made up and the next time I wake up, no one will have it.
It was this thought that made me realize that most of the world we live in is made up. It's things like cancer that make you step back and see the world differently. All of the things that were so important and necessary vanish. It seems as though life was a lie or at least everything everyone tells you you should know about life. Before cancer, or any life threatening illnesses for that matter, everything was so complex and the world had so many expectations for you.
You weren't human if you didn't know what happened in last weeks modern family episode and you couldn't fit in if you didn't know that one Office episode when Jim formed an alliance with Dwight or when The Office went on a field trip to Gettysburg.
Bad days were days that it took 5 minutes to find a parking spot or someone was driving slow and you couldn't pass them. Good days were when BYU won their football game or when your team was actual prepared for class.
It is interesting what the lens of cancer gives on your perspective of life. Few things matter any more. It frees you up in many ways. You stop caring about traditions and culture and you focus on what matters most, people.
Don't get me wrong, The Office is still a hilarious show and it is always a good day when BYU wins but now the pressure is gone. Have to's are now nice to's and life is a time of contemplation rather than check list of demands.
Hi Nate - that is really a deep thought. Cancer has struck my family in the past - more than once and I understand the pain. It is amazing that the degree of joy and sadness change so much with the life experiences we have or the circumstances we face. It also changes with time. My wishes now and those of 20 years ago are so different.
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